it changes a lot ..

i just dont know what to say, what to do ..
it got me insane ..
feels like a stranger for him ..
even that he has back, but its like he's still so far away,
no just in distance, but also in connection with my feeling ..
there're some different things ..
the tears can never be stopped and it hurts me so much..
well, i just need someone to heal the pain ..
someone to sweep away the tears ..
someone to share with ..
someone who wants to hear "everything" that i say and try to understand how difficult to be in my position ..
God ,, please .. just dont let me down to deep .. i cant face it alone )): 

some wishes for you

hello blogxy .. 

so sorry .. as always, been busy with my college that i couldnt write down here, hehe .. 

how are youu??? 

the passed September was the most horrible month for me .. 

yah, he got birthday at 8th n we broke our relationship up at 23rd .. 

can you all imagine how it feels??

4 years we built that relation and it's not easy to leave it behind . 

we've lots of memories n it  makes me suffer everytime i think about it .. 

the times we spent apart hv made our love go 

stronger, 

but it hurt so bad that i cant take it any longer .. 

but then im willing to let you go .. 

the only reason is that i want you to get another happiness out there .. 

even im still lovin you, but i've to stay this way ..

we cant take it anymore and this is the best decision, i guess .. 

I just pray for your better future, n I dont even try to forget you .. 

be wiser n keep spirit to reach your dreams .. 

gudluck for you dear (: